I got into a fight with my best friend..advice?

So heres the story...


i kinda talked **** about her to some other of my close friends... i said that she wasnt rilly my best friend and how i have more fun with them then her. So it was really kinda bothering me that i said that..so i texted her and said that we needed to hang out tomoro so that i can tell her that i said that. I told her cuz i thought it wud be better then keeping it in. okay so, we were in my room and she was like...oh what were u guna tell me. (im not guna explain little details) It took me like 15 minutes to get it out. And obviously if i felt bad saying it, it meant i cared..right? Then after i said what i said....she gets up and said well have fun with ur best friends. She grabbed her bag and left. i ran outside and stopped her, then we both started crying. she started walking down my street, so sat down and cried. but i didnt want that to be like my last time i was guna see her. so i ran after her. i kept saying sorry so many times and that she is my best friend. But she was like obviously not, since u talked **** about me. And so on. she rilly doesnt believe me. I reaaaaly do NOT think before i talk and i accsdently said those things. and 1 time was when i was drunk...so idk. down inside i know that it was a lie and i was just saying it and that she IS my best friend. God...idk what to do...ive hurt her so many times before. but i love her to death. can any1 tell me what to do? or how to apoligize? thank you so much!I got into a fight with my best friend..advice?
You have a lot of work to do, because you have to rebuild the trust. Since you say that you have hurt her many times before, it's not going to be easy. So write a letter, sincerely saying you are sorry. Do nice things for her flowers, candy, cake, cookies -- her favorite things. Take her out to dinner have a real heart to heart talk. Explain why she is your best friend and why you still want her in your life as a friend. Then proceed to tell her what you will do as a friend -- no more lies, no more talking w/o thinking. It's time to be mature. She may decide to give you a chance, you may lose a really good friend. Hope that either way you learn that friends are to be treasured, not trashed.I got into a fight with my best friend..advice?
If I were her and discovered my best friend talked a load of **** about me behind my back, I would walk away too and never come back. You are not a best friend are you. Don't blame the drink. You are jealous of her and your real personality came out when you'd had a few too many. It's up to you what you do now. Stop drinking? Grow up? Both?
You really thrive on all this drama, don't you. Don't worry, someday even you will grow up.